I joined HelloFresh with one of the new markets as a marketing analyst, at the very beginning I really expected it would be an exciting journey and I am gonna learn a lot, the fact is, I did learn a lot, at a cost of my work life balance and mental health, I can not remember how many times I received messages, emails at 10 pm, 11pm, 12 pm and even on the weekend. and asked me finish by tomorrow morning, when I woke up, I had to postpone all the tasks on hand, and in weekly meeting still received a feedback that I was not working hard enough, Countless time I woke up panically, afraid my manager throw 7 emails in 5 mins, like yesterday. and being in such a high pressure working environment really caused some pathological changes in my body. I can feel my heart getting tighten and really hard to breath when I tried to sleep. Although I achieved all the OKRs , I received the reason of terminating my contract was my strategically thinking is not up there. For me, it is pain reliefs, and if the time moved back to the very begging, I would tell myself not to join the company, for the sake of my mental and psychological heath.