Pros
It's all about the money. It's all I ever expect, that money every two weeks deposited in my account. I am never disappointed by the company, my co workers, or management because other than getting the money I simply don't care about anything anymore, and that's good. I never miss a day, don't talk back, I'm not even really "there". Forward, Back, Stop. That's the way they like it too, so it's working out.
Cons
I feel nothing at work except the cold in winter and a vague sense of missing something I used to have, some camaraderie, "feelings" I guess. I have accepted this dissociation from everyone I come in contact with, understanding that outside of the work environment there is something profoundly wrong with me. Unless something directly related to the work I don't even bother to make sense of what's said by train masters or conductors. I smile and nod a lot, but it's to make other people comfortable and reassured. I think I used to be human, but now - I'm something different.
